i didnt come school today because i was too tired and i needed to settle things with hatadi. then i had to go for my night drama class or my audition-cum-exam. i screwed it. i got the emotions right BUT, i missed out a whole chunk of lines in the script. my fault really. cause i wasted my weekend. and drama classmates kept looking at me and asked if i was okay. cause i looked depressed. i think the weekend got to me a little too much.

another thing. yes im sensitive, and no im not. contradicting. but i dont show much emotions at one go. i dont cry when im supposed to and i dont talk when im supposed to. i prefer to keep everything in my head and just be there. everyone gets the wrong idea. i think my brain and body arent very good friends. but my heart connects them both. people think im bad and some others think im good. well, you know what. im just fair. every bad person has good in them. and vice versa.

to ryn: standing up for em doesnt mean i dont stand up for you. i stand up for whichever or whoever that's right. that's not guilty. fuck, i already hate this fuckin situation. plus, it was supposed to be between us and now, i bet so many people already know about it. i know i wasnt there for you to cry on. because i didnt think i was needed. because you had other people that's already crowding in your circle. so took a step back.

i never meant for all these to happen but it already did. i explained countless of times but nothing comes across and so i give up. all i know is, what's done is done. everyone's got a part to be at fault. even i. and i know justice should be served, but think first.

loves,

B!

SOOOO MANY THINGS HAPPENED LATELY! either it's like fuck or superduper fun. i dont have exact dates but here's what happened in school. as per normal, syazni's always with my camera. so tradada! shazni with my shades on!

and during the weekends, ryn, fyna and i went to hardrock cafe with our boss and a VASANTHAM STAR!!! ahahah. i dont really know who she is but when we were out, she had a few fans who went up to her for autographs and photos and stuff. woohooo! i felt so like im-out-with-a-celebrity-so-that-means-im-part-popular! ahahhahahahahahha! so here's the girls and KAVITHA!

i was a zombie. zomg! okay, so yeh. point to note, i think even though im busy like WHATTHEHELL, i can actually squeeze in time to have fun! goooo bella!

loves,

B!

so anyhoos. latest submisison was over. and im just stress-less by 5%. HA HA! i still have not bought my project items and i am doooooomed. bella has got to buck up and start doing good in her studies. wha? wha? this is the eleventieouthyth time she said this. ha ha... and i got supershocked because sherry just said she was worried about me and my projects. ??!!!!

NEXT! my parents told me to quit just one job but i dont wanna quit. because i love all of my jobs. =) and of course having superduperawesome managers makes it BETTER. woohoooo! and that's how i cope this life of mine. appreciate lah beb!

and about my hubby, JAY SEAN! OI! WHO DOESNT KNOW WHO JAY SEAN IS?! alaaaamaaaaak. i get soooo sadded gila boobs yknow!

PS: i just prank called my manager. hehehehehehehehhe!

loves,

B!